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Time for an UPDATE!

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 17:16:39 GMT

So it came to my attention the other night that a few people I work with think I'm lair. Why they think this of me, I have no clue. I've never given them any reason not to believe me. What makes this worst is, I considered some of these people not only has my co-workers, but my friends. People who cared about me. I didn't take any bullshit from Toys R Us, I'm not going to take any from them. This makes it even harder to work with any of them.

On a lighter note, I got the key holder position with Game Stop. The only downside to this is I have to drive to Woodstock every day. Yesterday I went down there with Jon, to look at my new store, and it isn't that bad of a drive. I also met the store manager and he seems really nice. LoL We don't have the same taste in carpet, but I think we are going to work together great. I hope I don't let Jon down. I'm really excited and greatful for this opportunity that he has given me. Thanks Jon!!!!

So besides all that, I've been working ever day. My last day at the Game Stop in Winchester is Friday. It's kinda sad because I'm going to miss working with Jon & Chris, but since I'm a newbie, I'm sure I'm going to be calling them EVERYDAY!!!! Hahahaha!

MOOOOOORE TEST!

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 16:10:03 GMT

You Belong in 1980

1980

If you scored...

1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.

1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

What Year Do You Belong In?

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Sat, 12 Feb 2005 01:28:39 GMT

I am 50% Grunge.

I am pretty dirty, all right and, I reek of teen spirit... I would sell my own children for a moldy hotpocket, man.

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I am 26% Raver.

Well, I may have been to a rave. I probably know a bunch of ravers, but they may think of me as an outsider. That's okay, at least I am not a complete freak.

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I am 60% Ska.

Well, maybe I'm trying too hard, maybe I'm not trying hard enough. I shouldn't forget my roots, and remember that punk and reggae wouldn't exist without ska.

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I am 24% White Trash.

I, my friend, have class. I am so not white trash. . I am more than likely Democrat, and my place is neat, and there is a good chance I may never drink wine from a box.

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I am 44% Idiot.

I ain't too bright. But all those other idiots annoy the hell out of me. I may not be the brightest bulb in the bunch, but at least I know my limits.

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I am 29% Hippie.

I need to step away from the tie-dye. I smell too good to be a hippie and my dad is probably a cop. Being a hippie is not a fashion craze, man. It was a way of life, in the 60’s, man.

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I am 36% Asshole/Bitch.

I may think I am an asshole or a bitch, but the truth is I am a good person at heart. Yeah sure, I can have a mean streak in me, but most of the people I meet like me.

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I am 34% Evil Genius.

I want to be evil. I do evil things. But given the opportunity, and a darn good reason I may turn to the good side. Besides I am probably a miserable evil genius.

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I am 34% Metal Head.

Most other metal-heads acknowledge my presence, but they laugh at me behind my back. Maybe I need to stop spending all that money on haircuts and invest in a few Pantera T-shirts.

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I am 23% Emo.

Okay... so I'm not emo at all.. I am probably not even goth, because goths are just messed up emo kids... I am probably a metal head... or into boy bands...

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I am 50% Goth.

Oh My Goth! You Goth, Girl. There is a good chance I am bi. Freakiness pumps through my viens, but I can still laugh at myself.

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I am 27% Geek.

You probably work in computers, or a history deptartment at a college. You never really fit in with the "normal" crowd. But you have friends, and this is a good thing.

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I am 45% Internet Addict.

I could go either way. Deep into the madness of nights filled with coding CGI-Scripts and online role playing games, or I could become a normal user. Good luck!

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I am 55% Punk Rock.

The intelligent punk. Tuff and Smart. I may be able to maintain a train of thought long enough... What the fuck was I talking about?

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I'm Miserable

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 00:05:59 GMT

So yesterday I found out that Angela (a person who has complained about how horrible it is working for Hot Topic and has told the store manager to her FACE about how she would call off if she has a good excuse) got the key-holder position. Once again Lauren and I got passed up for it. You know what really sucks...I haven't hung out with anyone since Meagan (the last key-holder) quit. I've been laying around watching movies with Dan. I've basically been on my best behavior and I'm still getting accused of hanging out with other sales associate.

Debbie confronted me telling me about Angela, and said she had read my live journal. How I was talking about quitting. Now I really have no choice. Now that I know I can never move up in the company. I'm 21 and I really have nothing to show for it. Debbie told me that if I decided to stay the next position available I would be considered for, but that's what they said in my review. Sadly, I'm starting to think this is something personal they have against me.

Like a pussy bitch I was crying for the last 30 mins I was at work. I'm just so hurt by this, but oh well. It's retail. As long as the store is making their sales goals, they really don't care about my feelings.

Lets Wrestle

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 19:31:26 GMT

So to update from the other day:
1) I got all my money back from the bank. Thanks to my wonderful boyfriend, he wouldn't take no for an answer.
2) I got the $40.00 back from Entertainment Weekly, yet they had the nerve to send me a postcard asking if I wanted to sign up for the mag. HA I'm never signing up for another god damn thing again. I don't care how "FREE" it is.
3) Nobody has called me yet about their car. So hopefully I'm off the hook for good.
4) I still get picked on at Game Stop, but oh well. It's probably because I'm the only girl who works there.

So last night I went to Buffalo Wild Wings with my brother and his friend Bobby. The big wrestling match was on, and even though I thought it would be boring has hell, I actually had a good time. I saw Holly there with her man, and Dirty Jason Dean was sitting at her table as well. I left so bad for her. We hated him so much in High School. But yea, it's not often I get to hang out with my brother, so it's kinda cool. He is going to be visiting his girlfriend in Georgia for spring break, so that means I'm going to steal his PS2!! WOOHOO.

Our friend Rosa got kicked out of her house by her boyfriend Sos. So theres another person living in my basement. I feel so bad because she doesn't want to move back to California, but it seems like nothing is going right here. Oh well, Dan and I wont let her go. She has a wonderful job here and she knows she can't get that back in Cali.

Well, other than all that, I've been mad job hunting. But it seems like there is no work. Oh well, hopefully I'll be gone from HT before they hire the new key carrier. I don't know if I can handle working with someone (AGAIN) who got the position I wanted.

Bad Luck

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 05:24:26 GMT

1: My bank gave me about $160 in overdraft fees when I had money in my account.

2: Entertainment Weekly charged me $40.00 because in 2003 I signed up for 8 FREE issues, and they've been sending them to me ever since. Because I didn't call after eight months to cancel (nor was I told I was supposed to give such a notice), they've been taking my credit card number from my purchase at FYE, and have been taking it out of my account.

3: I hit a car pulling into a parking spot. It didn't look like I left a dent or anything, just a paint mark. I left a note with my phone number (because I didn't have my insurance information on me. MY BAD), but I haven't heard from them. *Crosses Fingers*

4: I am now the butt of the jokes at Game Stop. I guess that's what I get for telling on Josh.

I'm a horrible person.

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 15:31:08 GMT

So I got Josh, the asst. manager at Game Stop, fired. On Sunday he left the store leaving Kevin and I all alone (with about 10 customers in the store) for about 10 minutes, when he was the only manager on duty. So I told Jon, the store manager, about this because I know Josh was still going through some training. Thought maybe Josh wasn't aware of that rule. But I was wrong. Jon was kind of pissed and said those were grounds for terminated. So yesterday, I had to return this game I borrowed (because you have only a few days to borrow games and I didn't want to get into any trouble), and Josh & Jon were working. I wanted to get out there as quickly as possible so I throw the game on the counter telling Josh to check it back in, and I had almost made it to the door when Jon told me to come into the back.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!! Like now this guy knows I ruined his life. Jon wanted to know if I was sure he left the store and told me he was firing him after I left. God, I am the biggest bitch in the world. I feel like I'm in pre-school telling on a boy for pulling my hair or something. Gosh, I just hope he will be able to get back on his feet ok. But on a lighter know, Chris, this guy I worked with over the holidays is going to be the new asst. manager. Which is AWESOME. Cuz he is sooo nice.

Sadness at Hot Topic

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 01:32:27 GMT

So Monday I found out that Meagen got yelled at for getting her nipples pierced the same time I did. I don't know how the word got out. I guess Kiersten put 2n2 together. I feel really bad that she got yelled at. It's not like we went together and left together or anything. It's not like we were "hanging out". I hate that hole frantinization(I dunno how ya spell it) thing...and I know for a fact that Meagen isn't the only one who does it. *Sighs* Kiersten and the rest of the management like the think our store is one of the only stores out there without drama in our stores, but they are SO wrong. If only I had the balls to tell them this to their face.

On a lighter note, I got a second job for the season. Woohoo GameStop. I don't know much about video games, but I know my ABC's and I learn fast.

Jessica is talking to me again. WOOHOO, I've missed her so much. LoL Just wish we could go back to partyin like we used to. Just Dan, her, and I. OOOHHH The good ole days.

Oh happy day....

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 21:12:03 GMT

So yea, I haven't updated in awhile so since I have some time to myself I thought I'd write a lil sumthin sumthin. So yea, Dan and I are offically together. It's been so wonderful....Like I can honestly say we are both a lot happier. We haven't fought like once. It's a record for us...Hahaha.
Jessica hardly talks to me anymore. I don't know what her problem as been, she says she doesn't feel like talking to anyone yet she hangs out with those rednecks. I guess she wants to be with her kind. I went over to her house one night a awhile ago and her friends were there, and all she did was make fun of my hair, then my ears....It kinda hurt my feelings because like, shouldn't she be used to me doing totally random things?
Speaking of doing totally random things, Amanda pierced my boobies. She did Meagan's and Mandy's boobies too. Oh god did it hurt. after they had the CBR's in Amanda told Larry that the CBR wasn't alining right, and i thought they were talkin about my nipple...I started screaming "I don't care, just don't pierce it again" damn, I guess you just had to of been there. Well atleast I got my pen from there. And I can say I got something pierced there. I felt bad cuz Larry was like "Oh well you didn't your lip or your nose done here...." I can honestly say I wouldn't trust anyone else with my twins. ;)

Oh, random thought: I will never ever NEVER shop at Walmart during black friday.

SO MUCH FUN

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 03:27:52 GMT

This week has been nothing but fun.
Tuesday, on my birthday, Amanda, Meagan, and I went to BWW and watched the wrestling match with Andrew, Kenny, and Meaghan (not really my idea but ya know). It was kinda funny because Andrew was being a lil emo bitch because he was around his ex girlfriend and the girl who wants nothing to do with him. Poor lil Andrew. Then we went back to my place and Amanda pretty much finished half a bottle of vodka. Lets just say the next day she was sick all day long. I felt bad but it's still funny.
Thursday, I went to the strip club with Lauren, Nick, Natalie, & 2 other people from Ritz. Lauren was so sweet and paid my way in and got me a drink. So not only did I not have to spend one DIME but it was RON JEREMY night. LoL He is really a funny looking guy. Rush and Nick were there, which kinda made Lauren kinda uncomfortable, but Rush is still heartbroken. He can be a good guy, he just needs to get his shit straight. MMMM RUSH AND HIS HOT BOD...LoL Oh, and Mike showed up...LoL He is so cool, he bought me 2 yager shots and I was done. I really do need to build up my alcohol tolerance again.
Saturday, best fucking night of my life. Like seriously.....Woke up on Saturday, went to Baltimore with Dan and Jessica, and as soon as we got there we started drinking. LoL We (Jeff & Deric too) went bar hopping at 4 pm. LoL Then at about 9:30pm we went to this club.....I can't remember the name but it was ALL YOU CAN DRINK. LoL I pretty much wanted to dance the night away. I tired yuger bombs for the first time, they are so good. I'm going to have to make some one time. We also ate at this lil diner call sip & go or something like that. The food there was SOOO good. I know when we go back we have to eat at the place again. The bestest part about the hole trip though, is Dan and I didn't fight once. I think we became closer because of this trip and I realized how much I really do cherish what we have.
God, I have to get some sleep. I work at hot topic mid-shift then I start my other job working 10 pm to 7 am. I don't know if it's going to work out.

Why do boys talk so much shit?

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 15:02:43 GMT

So yea, I've been thinking I wont go to Baltimore for my birthday. It just seems like everyone wants to do something else, so I will probably just sit at home and do nothing as usual. WOO Happy 21st Birthday to me.
I've been so depressed lately and I don't know why. Like I know what some of it has to do with, but now I'm about to cry and I don't know why. Maybe it's just that time of the month or something.
I'm supposed to get my haircut today, but Jessica's mom is sick and can't make it, but she will cut it tomorrow. I am so scared. I haven't gotten a cut in awhile....I hope it wont look stupid. :(
Lauren and I are going to hang out tonight. Probably get some icecream and watch some movies. It should be interesting.....Then Amanda and I are goin to spend the day together tomorrow.
Hopefully soon I will have something HAPPY to post about. Until then...I think I'm just going to keep to myself about all my thoughs and problems.

Dying

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 00:49:16 GMT

I think I'm dying.
I don't know why...I guess my body is going crazy...
I kinda wish I would though...
:(

This Sucks

Wed, 29 Sep 2004 03:28:43 GMT

Welp, things have been going okey for me. Dan and I are back to being good ole buddies, but just not living together. The only thing about this is I have to get used to being alone more often....It sucks....I am so hungry for human contact...and I want it all the time. I don't know...Maybe I'm just crazy.

I bought a couch for $20. Its a pretty nice too. It's a sleeper sofa so I'm going to have mad sleepovers. LoL

I'll be 21 in about 3 weeks. God I am so scared....

I don't want to grow up....Cuz I'm a Toys R Us kid...Wait, no I'm not! FUCK TOYS R US!

The new couch.....

My new favorite shirt ^^^! LoL

I'm Full Of Bullshit!

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 04:27:12 GMT

It has been a great day...Even though so much shit happened to me yesterday. I ran into an old friend of mine....Janson Chambers...Omg he looks so good. He is like honestly one of the most sweetiest guys in the world. We talked for about an hour out side of my bank. Talking to him just brighten up my week. Then I went to go see Amanda at the shop, and she wanted to be with me since I was so depressed. God, I love her so much. If it weren't for her, I'd be at home crying all day....But I've been out all day with her. We went and had mexican food (yuck), and then went to the mall. I saw Angie, Mike, and Jeff. Mike is supposed to call me some time this week so we can hang out. After the mall me and Amanda went and saw Resident Evil 2 for the second time. It still is a kick ass movie, then to Walmart. LoL Saw Chad and his girlfriend, she just got a Slipknot tattoo....I can't see myself getting a band tattoo....I mean maybe Operation Ivy, but I've liked them since forever and a day, and even though they aren't a band anymore, there music made an impact on punk/ska music forever.
Welp, hopefully I will get to talk to Dan tomorrow. We really just need to sit down and get all our shit off our cheast....*Sighs*

He's ready to go, and he's not even going to say goodbye...

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 08:44:13 GMT

I feel betrayed, used, lied to, abused, miss-treated, annoyed, pissed off....
But even worst, I feel hurt, alone, unloved, unwanted, misunderstood, ugly, immature, uncomfortable, and so so confused.
Must be nice to feel nothing at all...

Nothing better to do...

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 04:50:23 GMT

I'm hanging out with Amander tomorrow. I'm really excited cuz I've been REALLY depressed lately. With work and other things. Doesn't look like I'm going to be going to B-more this weekend. Dan has invited a friend, and I don't know what is going on there, but I don't want to be a third wheel or anything.
I'm talking to Lauren on aim at the moment. I wish she would of gotten the position. Then maybe I wouldn't be so down. I just have this gut feeling that Kiersten & Debbie have something agaist me, but maybe I'm just being stupid. I couldn't even look Kiersten in the face today. :(
Job hunting for me tomorrow. Jim says that they are looking for someone to work the night shift at 7-11. I don't have a problem with that. I don't do anything at night anywayz. Also, I think Wal-mart might be an option, but lets see how the other thing goes.
Yea well, its almost 1 and I'm sick of bitching.

The good and the bad...

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 18:11:27 GMT

Good
*Saw Resident Evil 2! It kicked some butt...
*Talked to Kristen
*I'm going to hang out with Amanda some time this week.
*I might be going to Baltimore this weekend.

Bad
*I'm supposedly getting on my roommates nerves.
*My cell phone is broken & I can't afford to get a new one.
*I didn't get the key carrier position at work.
*I need to find a new job.
*I have no money for gas.
*I have no money for an oil change for my car.
*Jessica's Uncle died.

Awww....I want to be awesome...

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 03:45:49 GMT

"Lauren is soo awsome. Knowing her is like a dream I never want to wake up from. She is something every guy would enjoy in a girl. She is cute, sexy, beautiful, fun, caring, crazy, kinky, wild, nice, sweet, funny, goofy, a goober, a dork, and just straight up awsomeness. She has such a beautiful voice, its like Angel's singing their song in the mountains. Its just so beautiful you forget everything you are doing just you here the sweet sound. As her voice echos off the mountains you think its a number of angels when in fact its only one. Her eyes capture you, and you just can't walk away. and her brown flowing hair, so so beautiful.

I could go one but I think that fits the point wouldn't you Lauren.

Well take care

Talk to you later Lauren."

Ha, I can say so much about this entry my friend has posted, but I wont go there. I just wish someone felt that way about me. Damn, there I go sounding all emo again. FUCK

Its all fucked up...

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 05:13:15 GMT

I haven't written in my journal in awhile I know. At the moment I'm on the rag and hella pissed off. Lately I haven't been up to much really. My friend Jeff came down from Baltimore. Yea, that was ok. Him and Dan got my car searched by a K-9 Unit (I wasn't there at the time because I had to help Jessica take her car to the shop)....The fucking dog scratched up my doors and my back bummer. I'll take some pictures of it as soon as this shitty ass weather clears up. So I don't know what to do about that.

We all also went to Kings Dominion, but that was all ruined because Dan and Jeff had to walk 10 feet infront of us (Jessica & myself), the hole time. but whatever. It ended up turning into a huge arguement about nothing....

Then Jeff & I got into a HUGE fight....I dunno, maybe it WAS because it was that time of the month, but whatever....

I can't wait till Saturday! Amanda and I are going to see the new Resident Evil movie. She is so awesome, and so pleasent to be around when I'm all down and depressed.

So I'm offically poor now. I only have 2 bills to pay and I can't even pay them. My cell phone is broken, my car needs an oil change, I need new clothes because my clothes are falling apart, and I don't have any gas money....:( WAHHHH I don't wanna grow up.... GRR, I'm going to bed now.

Busy Couple Of Weeks

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 03:11:39 GMT

So I had Kristen here for about a week. It was so great. I've missed her so much!!! I felt bad cuz ya know this is Winchester, and there wasn't much to do, and she was sick, but she would alwayz make the best of the situation. I honestly didn't want her to go, but she promised every other year she would try and make it out for a visit. I MISS YOU KRISTIN.

So since Kristen left I've been pretty bummed out. Jessica hardly talks to me anymore. Dan works 7pm to 7am, and he uses my car to get to and from work (not that I'm complainning about him using my car....atleast I don't have to wake up hella early in the morning). and It sounds like every one of my other friends hang out with Steve (Animal). Ugh....Atleast Amanda is coming over tomorrow. Dan is going to a party, Jessica's aunt's b-day party is tomorrow, and I really don't want to be left at home alone while everyone else is partyin. Speaking of, this girl I met like once invited me to a party next Saturday!! She is hella cool, and I think I'm going to go.

My grandfather is sick. I'm really worried. :( I'm not sure what all is going on yet....I don't care if it's "God's Plan" He aint ready to go yet. God can't fucking have him.

Stuff

Sun, 08 Aug 2004 15:52:30 GMT

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I have boogers in my nose.

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 14:18:54 GMT

So I went to this party out in Martinsburg, WV. It was alright....I couldn't drink cuz I had to drive home, so that sucked. I was so jealous watching everyone drink. The first half of the night I just sat around and didn't really talk to anyone, then in the second half everyone was all around me hangin out laughin and shit. The guy who through the party has some cool friends. I ended up talking to Nathan and Bobby the most. Bobby had hella pissed me off at first, cuz Dan and him were having this coversation about how they would like "normal" girls, not Hot Topic bitches. Yet, he ended up cuddleing with me. Ha, normal girls my ass....But all in all, he was a really sweet guy (and the hottest guy at that party), and we talked for hella hours. He gave me his phone number and I dunno if I could call him...or if he would even remember me. LoL

Alot more shit happened, but I don't feel like typin all of it. Besides, I have to get ready for work.

Fuck Da Police

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 14:29:19 GMT

So, this morning I got my first ticket, and no it wasn't for being a speed racer. When I got into my car to go pick up Dan, it was on there. :( Because I didn't have a city sticker. I guess since it's the end of the month those pigs have to make their quota. The funny thing is, yesterday I went to City Hall to get my sticker, I just forgot to put it on my car! :( Oh well, I'm fighting this, because I just got my car registered, so technically I still have 2 more weeks to even get city stickers. So Poo On You Po Po Man!

My Dream Car

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 01:25:32 GMT

This is what I hope my car will look like after I'm done with it. It might take a few years, but it's worth the wait.

Isn't it a beauty? *droolz*

I hate camping!!!

Tue, 27 Jul 2004 03:44:06 GMT

So yea, I went up to the Cove for the weekend, and it was alright. I was in a really weird mood, but what else is new. My dad's friend's wife was being a total bitch. No wonder no one likes her. Like, I'll ask my dad if he'd need help, and he would tell me no, then she would go and bitch me out because I didn't help him. She still thinks I'm 8 years old or something. Then, I was afraid to use the potties. The doors stay open all the time, so who knows what would come up outta there and bite my ass. And, on top of that, my dad only brought thin ass blankets, so that night I was freezing, and didn't get any sleep. :( I'm defo not the camping type at all.

I've been in a really bitchy mood lately. Dan and I have been arguing a lot, about stupid shit. I wish I could just get over things like him. I'm all needing closure or something. Alwayz needing to talk things out, and Dan just forgets it.

So I took Amanda to work today. She saw this guy who freaked her out, so I decided to wait with her until Alicia got there. Comes to find out, the weird guy was cutting his wrist and trying to kill himself. And we are convinced that he was on something good. Wish I could get some of it. I dunno, took 'em 5 cops to actually get him down. Hella funny, made the day more interesting.